Evolution

Resolutions:
I hereby resolve to continue to love and hate my job until I decide it's time to quit. Which may be in 2013. Or it may not.

I hereby resolve to continue to workout 5 days a week, on average, so that I can eat whatever I feel like (within reason) and not gain weight. And if I do gain weight, I resolve to still love myself while I quit my once-a-day chai and cookies habit until that weight is lost so that I can start that habit back up.

...And if you didn't go to the gym in all of 2012, can you please go when I'm not there during January... like at 7 a.m.? I really do feel like I've earned the right to those treadmills at 6 p.m. and hate how I can't have one the entire month of January... (I'm an asshole.) 


I hereby resolve to continue to learn to forgive myself for the things I didn't have control of in the first place, for saying dumb things out loud, and mean things in my head (and to also try to stop those mean thoughts).

I hereby resolve to continue to see my therapist (although maybe less) so I can learn how to someday have a healthy relationship that lasts longer than 6 months.

I hereby resolve to continue to overshare everything that happens to me because secrecy equals shame in my head and there's nothing funnier than the things normal people would find shameful.

I hereby resolve to continue to resolve to be a better person in new ways during various times throughout the year and never wait until January 1 to start anything that can easily be started now.

I hereby resolve to continue to feel grateful for everything I have, strive for bigger and better things, but feel contentment with where and who I am right now.

And love. I resolve to love... whoever I can, as much as I can. Because I struggle with love sometimes, but I love love.

Also, I might try to go to Europe to visit a friend. I really should do that this year...

Happy New Year, friends. Resolve only to continually evolve.

(Did I write that? I feel like someone much more philosophical than I should have written that. I'm going to take credit for it, though. I'm a lyrical genius. <--- that someone else wrote.)